The People in my Life

As a few people have pointed out, i have not written.
anything.
in.
a.
week.
Don't remind me that I am over ten thousand words behind.
In the first 12 days-i wrote well over 24,000 words and now I am 10,000 behind.
I have 12 days left.
A little over 25,000 words to write...
which averages to be... 2084 words a day.
If i wrote 5,000 in five days..I'd be done.
Hmmm...all the numbers are swarming in my head.
I guess the reason i stopped writing so much is because i hit the hard part of the novel, the part i always avoid.
The plot.
Does my novel need one? i think so. All novels need plots, or at least thats what I have been taught.
Would mine suck without a plot? Of course. All novels/movies without plots suck. They fail miserably and I don't want to be known as that chick whose novel has no plot.
I would be depressed.
So, after getting some inspiration from some fellow NaNoers on their message boards, I am ready to dive in tonight-explain some things and work my way downhill from the peak I found myself on one week ago tonight(the last time I wrote).
Perhaps i won't do it to the best of my ability. Perhaps I will make typos up the wazoo, or forget to put in words as a generally do, or mix up effect and affect like i did in my TE paper that was due today.
BUT!
I will preservere over these words. I will conquer and manipulate them, making them do as I wish, with some help from Madeline and Justin. After all, seeing as this is their story, they have a right as to telling me how they want their lives to go.
And to think, Ethan and Cameron made fun of me last week because I "talk" to my characters.
mmm...maybe that is crazy.
But like i said before, this is their story to tell, and they have been yelling at me for ignoring me this past week. I guess its about time i sit down, and type their thoughts down. They want it told, I'm just their means of doing so.
And because there are many people i need to prove myself to. I don't want to hear, "Are you actually going to finish this one?" with a smirk on their face anymore. Who needs to hear that-it makes me feel like my friends don't believe in me and my dreams. ALWAYS believe in your friends dreams, they are just as important as your own, if not more...
I want to know, come december 1st that I have completed it and it kicks butt in my eyes. But Kyle supported me last night, telling me he wants to read the final draft...and that he's rooting for me. jenny constantly leaves me notes, telling me to keep going and encouraging me. She is getting a copy when i am done. Cat has supported me, helping me and pushing me forward. Even my brother has offered to edit it when i am done and is waiting patiently for me to finish so he can read it. Dave, I will take you up on that in december.

I also have someone else rooting for me, who told me, "I want you to do this for yourself." That was all i needed to hear last night, thank you Matt, for pushing me forward and on to the finish line and for putting faith in me to do something I have dreamed of for as long as I can remember.

I'll see you later, probably on december first, holding a completed novel in my hand.

-allie-